Ok, so first off, I'll address one of the major points I mentioned in my last blog post. So I've been struggling with comparison for quite a while. Part of that's due to the fact that I thrive in competition and have a desire to be the best at whatever I'm doing. That in itself isn't the issue - the real issue comes when I start looking around at where other people are and comparing myself to them and their current state (or what seems to be their current state). So that series ("The Comparison Trap") couldn't have come at a better point for me. I was talking with my discipler last week, and I mentioned that this was something that I really wanted God to break down in my life. She prayed for me, and a couple of nights later, I had this really weird image during a time of worship. Essentially, there were 2 balls - one was clearly larger than the other. I knew that the smaller ball represented the view of the world and the big ball was God's view. Then there was this little action figure man who jumped on top of the little ball and squished it before quickly jumping on top of the God sphere. I was expecting it to be over at this point, but the larger sphere turned into this waterfall-like thing and completely engulfed the little man. I knew exactly what this meant. I've heard people constantly saying that what the world thinks of you isn't what matters, but what God thinks does matter. It's not until He revealed that to me that it actually made sense though. Also, a really cool thing that I have realized about God is that no matter how much I think I want to now/love/pursue Him, He only wants to know/love/pursue me more. So that was a really incredible experience, but it doesn't end there.
Later on in the week, I had another kind of image vision while I was praying. I don't yet really understand it or know what it means to the full extent, so I'm not going to put it on the blog right now.
Then we had the glorious Labor Day weekend (thank you Canada!) to have some hamburgers and celebrate labor by enjoying a day off. Perfetto. I got to spend my day chilling at the mall and going for a nice bike ride with the madre. Also, our family got to celebrate 3 b-days that have all happened this week, so that was fun and exciting!
I can't even begin to describe how busy this week has been, but it's been so great. I'm pretty sure Bert (my car, for those of you who haven't had the pleasure of meeting) is determined to smell like pizza for a record number of days. I picked up some pizza on Wednesday for Italian club, and he still has a faint sauce and bread smell. It just makes me seem Italian, right? :) No judgment. And my sister decided to introduce me to this show called "Whodunnit?" I have to say that it's probably not one of the best shows I've watched since I'm not really into reality TV stuff, but y'all, I'm addicted. It's a problem. GILES - the butler. He has the driest sense of humor ever, and I love it!!! Oh, it's so great, all the puns! You just have to watch it - all the episodes are on Youtube currently, so run over there and start up some season one. (You actually don't have to run...just click a new tab and type.) I got to have dinner Wednesday night with Rachel, one of my good friends, and then we went to Wesley. And that's just always great.
My paragraphs are so not proportional...my speech teacher would be so disappointed. Oh, well. I'll start yesterday (Thursday) in this new paragraph since the other one was getting kind of long. Anywho, yesterday: So one of the things I do is have my "quiet time" during my 30 min morning walk. And I put "quiet time" in quotes because sometimes it's not so quiet. Yesterday morning was one of those not-so-quiet mornings. Somehow, I got on the topic of friendships. For those of you who don't personally know me, I'm the kind of person who has a couple of close friends and then I struggle to have those friends that I can just hang out with. And I'm definitely not good with the whole small talk thing. And I don't think silence in the middle of a conversation is awkward - that was another thing my discipler and I talked about. But anyway, two concepts from yesterday morning really stood out to me, so I'm going to list them here.
(1) A friendship is one of the most beautiful things in this world.
(2) There will be some relationships that end in heartbreak. That's not how it was originally intended. But those friendships that may end in heartbreak or betrayal are far outweighed by those that don't. (1 Thessalonians 5:11)
I later looked up some verses on friendship and came to a quick realization that the Bible, particularly Proverbs, is littered with them. I guess this might be my next area to work in.
Even though I am starting yet another paragraph does not mean I'm done with Thursday. The day itself was quite interesting. I took a quiz, but the professor was short a couple of copies so I had to look up at the overhead at the makeshift quiz to take it along with two of my other classmates. It was kind of annoying, but I felt sorry for the professor since he seemed genuinely upset that he was sort a few copies. Actually, it was kind of funny...that's totally the kind of thing that would happen to me! Then I went to the GA Wildlife Meeting for my wildlife lab. I had to rush out of my class that ended at 12:15, catch a bus across campus, and drive to Whitehall by supposedly 12:30. All the time I was driving there, I was sure I was going to be late, but they hadn't even finished the lunch break by the time I got there. After that, I got baptized! Technically, it was a celebration of my baptism since I was christened as a baby. I know that's controversial waters or whatever (dude, I made an unintentional pun!), but I feel like I wanted to personally be the one to reaffirm that decision in my life to dedicate myself to God and the work He's doing in my life. That's the basic gist if that makes sense. (Note: I'm pretty sure that's the first time I've ever written the word "gist." Somebody bake me a cookie. But really.) It was amazing. I'm so thankful for all my sisters who came to support me! It's not like anything I've ever experienced, and I would try to explain what happened here but I know it's just not going to happen.
Today was pretty chill - class, DT, and a test review. This post is getting long now, and there's no pictures. So I think it's time for a wrap-up. Here's the wrap-up: GOOOO DAWGS.
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| Labor Day Bike Ride |
Until next time,
Megan
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